Done

Hey.
Its been awhile.
I may not able to write in here anymore.
Because i dont feel like expressing to anyone anymore.
I do know i have depression.
Its Its getting worst.
I even consider dying.
To escape from this pain.
I wonder if im finally gone,
Does he feel relieved cause his burden has gone?
Does ayah finally remember me?
Does everyone notice me?
Does my siblings stop look at me as ATM?
Does my mother finally see my pain?

But one person going to suffer more.
My kid.

To be honest,
Ive got nothing in me.
Blank.
Except my love for her.
If not because of her,
I wont be here today.
My iman has gone away
My aqidah flew out the window
Im losing sense.

Done for me.