100th Day

I always thought ayah passed on 24th.

But it's actually 23rd.

So its 100 days today.

I am listening to Kau Pergi Jua by Dayang while writing this, because i torturing myself.

Ayah, how are you over there?

Ayah, why u never appear in my dream?

I'm looking forward to meet you..

Even all my siblings has seen you, why not me?

I'll be waiting for that day to come.

Ayah.

I never thought i'll be broken like this.

I thought i feel nothing if u died.

But why i'm the one who dying?

Ayah.

There's million of regrets i felt

There's so much things i wanna share

There's plenty of forgiveness i wanna seek

But nonetheless.

You have gone.

My head keep repeating the day you died.

It just playing rent free in my mind.

The last time i bath you.

The last time i kiss you.

The last time i saw your face.

The last moment i see your cold body before you've buried 7 feet down the earth.

I lost half my soul that day.

I missed your voice.

I missed you, ayah.

Thank you for raising me up.

Thank you for loving me.

Thank you for the life i had.

Along sayang ayah, sampai bila bila.