Homage

This is the only place,

I can pour my heart out.

I thought i can be myself in my own home

But i was wrong.

He told me to cut if off.

Stop being sad and weak.

Start doing house chores and be like normal.

It was heartless you know.

But like usual, i just keep quiet.

I am too tired to argue again.

I am too hurt..

Did he realized i lose my only father?

Did he knew i was devastated because i am not able to seek for forgiveness?

Did he knew i never said i love you to my dad?

I guess he didn't. Because the one who died was not his dad.

Lucky you.

You're family is perfect.

While mine was like this.

I missed my dad. My mom. Myself

I wonder what happen on the other side when u die?

Ahh.. the suicidal thought..

I hate it. But i can't help it.

I only have my daughter and my mom as my reason to keep living..

But truth is, im dead inside.

I got no one except for my daughter.

She is the one who wipe my tears..

I am going to take my meds now.

My migraine is getting worse.