SURGERY SOON

Asalamualaikum.
Hi.
Feels like years i didnt come here.
Hows everyone?

Okay. Obviously when im in here,
Means im going to write down memories.
Things that i will read in few years time to reminiscing.
Because i wanted to look back every important things that happen in my life.

In this past 2 years,
I keep check in ER,  warded, ultrasound,  xray, endoscopy and so on.
My body changes a lot chubbier especially my tummy.
Always bloated and seems like im preggy but never give birth.  HAHA
I get a lot of congratulations word from friends who though im pregnant my 2nd child,  and some nasty word said im fat.  Haha fuck u.

Not sure if i ever shared this because mommy aint got time to checkup recent post,
I got gallstone in my gallbladder.
Not 1 not 2 not 3 maybe 20-30 stones in there.
Multiple size.  Thank god for now, everything all secure in there,
None have slips out yet, i hope not.

HOW I GOT THIS STONES IN ME? 
Well babe, i questions myself everyday.
Maybe because my eating habit.
Im working in retail so our time is a bit tight.
I work in shift so im not eating regularly every day,
And since im also have gastric,
I just grab whatever quick and tasty meal,
Which is obviously fast food.
And i often eat heavy meal at night time because if im on noon shift,
Usually had my break at 5 and by the end of my shift, im already starving.
THIS IS THE LIFE OF RETAIL WORKER.
This stone takes years to develope. So i guess im not only work hard to earn money,
Stones too!  HAHAHA

HOW I KNOW ITS GALLSTONES
I keep having this abdominal pain,
It start from middle of my upper belly,
Spread to right side and my back to shoulder.
I went to plenty clinic and doctor keep assuming
It was gastric and i even got gastric shot but the pain did not go away.
Another symptom is vomiting without even trying,
It just keep coming out.
I cant lay down or sit. Every positions seems not right.
The last things to do is ER.
After i got painkiller, i finally feel better.
And few ER visit for same reason,
1 kind hearted doc in ER do ultrasound on me and
She was the one who found out about the stones.
And the checkup go on and on.

I went to hukm for my checkup and everything,
Last week i met Dr. Zamri, and he suggest surgery for me.
And im kinda shock when he said waiting list gonna be long,
My thought was its only 1 or 2 mnth but im literally skip a beat when he said the fastest would be in august 2018.WHAT THE HELL??
So im asking him if he can give me a referal letter for private hospital.
And he gladly said hukm has private wing and surgery is anytime to be done.
AND ITS ON 7TH FLOOR!
Ok.  I didnt know. If i knew, i will go there looooooonnnngggg time ago!
Thank god my company insurans cover for this.

Today is the day i met my surgeon Prof Dato Dr Razman.
Such a nice person and he explain to me how the procedure done.
My gallbladder will be removed. Damn girl, im going to be a human with no gallbladder. Satu nikmat Allah tarik.
My surgery will be keyhole sugery.
They going to put camera thru my bellybutton,
And punch holes under my ribs, the place where gallbladder is if u dont know.
And he decided to have the surgery next week in 14th dec.
It is our store xmas party hmmmmmmm 😢
I know my salary will be cut off because i need to take time off to heal,
but i got no choice either.
I cant work properly, handle my family or even handle myself
if i keep being sick.

Lets hope for the best.
Lets hope everything going to fine.
Lets hope for me to be healthy again.
Insyallah.