MOM

HELLO.
ITS BEEN AWHILE.

What i'm into lately?
I am done with my wedding receptions on Jan 24.
It was great experiences.
I am now unemployed. *clap clap
well, its not like i wanna be a housewife or something.
i just want to walk away from my old job.
Too stress and hurtful.
a lot of fakers.
damn suffering being into the same situation everyday.
At least i walk away with honor.
i wont stay and up my level being buttlicker or backstabber.
that just not me.
Still looking for a better job. hubs just gimme 1 month to rest.
I NEED to have a job by next month.
NO. i havent pregnant. i thought i am but obviously i am just imagining it.
Its okay. Allah knows when the best time to have it. Just need to be patience a bit.

Mom is going to Aussie.
She's going to work there.
or maybe migrate there since she was raise in Aussie.
I secretly wished she wont go.
because i will be lonely as hell.
All this while, i am the one who leave.

15yo : asrama in Malacca.
17yo : PLKN in sarawak.
21yo : Singapore.
22yo : Bangkok
23yo : Sarawak again.

Now i know how it feels when people we love are going far away.
I wonder how am i going to live without a sight of you mom ?
How am i going to handle this house alone ?
Who's going to tells me which part i lack ?

You suppose to stay home by now.
I should work harder for us to be rich.
So that you can rest.
Forgive me mom.
For not able be rich.

i'm so ashamed of myself.
I'm sorry mom.
I love you so much.