Right this moment

Being the youngest among oldest is not fun at all.
Especially when you need to face their temper.
They often lose their temper on me.
Hentak barang infront of me.
Perli perli.
Speak loudly.
Sometimes i just felt like wanna burst all my temper as well.
But every single time, i just keep quiet.
Cause mom always taught me respect.
I don't want them saying that i am a rude person or
My mom never taught me manners.
I hate it.
I hate when people teasing or talk bad about my family.
Im afraid i'll ended up killing someone.
I am a human too.
 I have feelings.
Sometimes, they shouldn't treat me like this.
When i treat them nicely all the time.
I still have mother and father,
They dont have the right to do something like this to me.
Im not even guilty.
They just have nobody to let their temper off,
Then they choose me.
Sometimes i felt like stupid.
I done everything for their sake,
When it comes to my part,
This is what i get.
What the fuck?
Sorry for the swear word.
I just cant hold it too long anymore.
I just hope they will think of my feelings before talking.
Yes, im younger.
Feelings doesnt have any age limit you know?
And please put yours into my shoes,
What will u feel? What will your parent think of someone who treat u like shit?
This is called bully. Mentally.
I cant tell u this.
Or tweet it or posted it in fb.
Someone will offence. I know.
Thats why these words in here.
My little secret diaries since forever.
I hope the time flies faster a bit.
That time you'll know why.
Dissapointed with everyone.
Thats the real feeling of mine.
Right this moment.